It has been quite a while since my last blog. Not much has really changed though. I have good days and some fearful days. Mostly I would say things have been pretty status quo. This makes the days of pain even more fearful for me though. Why you may ask?
It's because just when I feel like things are progressing in a good way, I suddenly have some pain which makes me wonder, in my heart of hearts, if the epidydimitis is returning. Every pain, every sensation, every twinge, makes me wonder...is it coming back.
That's the stinky part, well...there are lots of stinky parts, but this is another one: you just never get over it. It lingers in your mind and plays tricks on you. I'm now 21 months post reversal and yet I'm still wondering. I hate that.
So every once in a while I take some tylenol or ibuprofen, walk around the block, or whatever I can to calm down the nerves.
There isn't a whole lot of changes at this point, which maybe I should be glad about. Maybe the consistency of the inconsistency is something to be appreciated? I'm not really sure. But I'll take what I can get at this point.
On a similar, yet different note; I'll hopefully have some exciting news shortly, although hopefully not exciting news about my health condition, just something else. I can't divulge anything yet, but it will be big news, for me at least. So until then, take care and may the Lord bless you.